I would wonder, how beautiful this world would be without you,

how would I look like without you, 

how would I not have all these stupid crazy feelings.

I stayed strong till this point, and finally I'm gna breakdown.

I felt like giving up suddenly.  I just, can't seems to find the strength to go on.

School was fine, perfectly. Only that something was amissed.  I was waiting, and waiting, but none happened.

I tried ignoring my precious, left it in the bag and only opened it after everything ended.

Messages, Miss calls and so, but none. Just none.    I was like @%^@(#*&!$*(!@$

I smiled, Laughed and Acted like nothing have ever happened. 

I live the life I used to, but it was so strange.

I called Natalie and that freaking mama bitch is so @$&@)#! that she ps-ed me lo ):

don't know how sad I am and yet.  Bitch eh! I think she deserves to die! >=(

I HOPE SHE WOULD BANG THE WALL TONIGHT WHILE SLEEP WALKING,
I HOPE SHE WOULD CALL ME TONIGHT AND SHE FALLS ASLEEP SO SHE WILL START TALKING THINGS AND I WOULD RECORD THEM AND POST THEM ON THE INTERNET FOR EVERYONE TO SEE AND LAUGH AND I'LL BE HAPPY I THINK!

BUT I THINK SHE AIN'T THAT GOOD. SHE RATHER ME BE SADDIEXZXZ WORSXZXZ ):

So, walked out to the bus-stop behind school.

I planned everything nicely, to go home and go online. Wait for you to appear, hoping that everything would revert. [But till now, none]

So I thought over again, it's like kinda dumb right? because if you really have the hearty, Just a message would be fine! ):

I decided to cab down to the freaking far place in harbour front called VIVO!

yay! I'm there alone, ALONE! I swear. 

I walked up, down, left, right, HOPING TO SPEND ALL MY MONEY JUST LIKE FLUSHING IT DOWN THE DRAIN BECAUSE WHEN I SPEND MY MONEH, I'LL THINK THAT IT'S ALL THE TROUBLES THAT I'M GNA THROW!  yay!~~

But to my saddest horror, I only bought SWEETS AND CHOCOLATES -.-

what-the-hellzxzxz.        People always tell me, Chocolates would make you happy whenever you're down. Chocolates would be the best accompanion because you can treat it as the freaking damn object and vent everything on it before eating them up!

So, I bought this Hippo-like Kinder.B and a longlonglong box of After Eight and Packets of Grams of Chocolates and Gummy Bears (Because it makes me happy because I can squeeze it, pull it, slam it, smack it, and almost everything to it before i eat)  and some wine-y chocolates that had alchol in it ^^ 

Started doing all the house chores before I even dare to open all my choco and gobble them down my tummy because I'm freaking sad, and I went to do my house Chores smacking every lil piece of leaves outside my belcony and slaming them on to the floor and sweeping them out and aiya! I HAD ENOUGH LA! -.-

I'm super glad that I have my hamsters but still I'M CRAVING FOR A DAMN DOG AS MY PET VERYVERY BADLYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY ): ): ): ): ): ):

I'm done with posting today because if I were to continue, I WILL GET MAD AND ALSO,
NATALIE IS GETTING ON MY NERVES FOR CALLING ME BABY @$(&@(*$^@&*#^!(